Enjoyment of the moment

 

“WHEN I STAND BEFORE GOD AT THE END OF MY LIFE, I WOULD HOPE THAT I WOULD NOT HAVE A SINGLE BIT OF TALENT AND TIME LEFT, AND COULD SAY THAT I USED EVERYTHING YOU GAVE ME, GOD!”

– Erma Bombeck

 

“I want to be happy in my life!”

 

That’s the most repeated phrase after “I love you”. Happiness is that ONE thing we all chase and long for. The happiness has as many faces as people on this planet.

 

As I sit on my pillow, my hand writes down one of the most beautiful words, which seemed like a cry of my soul. The happy cry, the aha-moment cry, the Eureka cry – the realization cry of what happiness is for me.

Today I share with you that deep, vulnerable and empowering desires!

 

“I truly want to be happy in my life!

I don’t want to do what doesn’t spark me.

The last few weeks of hustling to post the most inspiring words on social media, following all other inspiring coaches and women, comparing myself to others just made me feel very fearful, miserable, unhappy, not present and not appreciative of what I have right now in my life.

I realized that the hustle may not be for me.

The rat race and money chasing may totally be out of my life or happiness definition.

 

It hit me how much I want to organically inspire, motivate, help and be of service to others, just be being the truest version of myself.

 

And, I also want to enjoy life! I truly do.

I want to enjoy time with my partner instead of being stressed about not doing enough.

I want to enjoy the healthy food and have fun with it instead of being miserable and obsessed with my body image.

I want to enjoy the movements of my body, workouts, and dance instead of punishing and hurting my body.

I want to be healthy and fit and go places instead of being overstressed and frozen in the hustle mode.

I want to enjoy the cozy, loving and safe place and home instead of chasing huge and cold villas.

I want to enjoy my garden full of herbs and nature instead of feeling that this is a waste of time.

I want to enjoy doing new things and build memories with my fiancée and friends instead of being a workaholic.

I want to connect with people on a personal level instead of being fake and copy-monkey social media guru.

I want to enjoy small groups meetings and retreats where true connection, magic, love, self-expression, and beautiful transformations happen instead of hiding from the overwhelm of this world.

 

I want to feel happy and proud of myself at the end of the day. I want to know that I did everything in all my abilities to love and be loved. I want to be content knowing that my time was very well spent with all I have. I want to live being appreciative of my life every second.

 

I want to give it a time – a time to listen to myself, a time to hear what the Universe has to say, a time to flow with what it’s meant for me.

I want to focus on my emotions, body, and cycle.

I want to be appreciative of every moment.

I want to express love every day.

I want to be in the flow.

I want to just be, in the present moment

And I want to be patient to be able to see and feel what lights me up. “

 

What does happiness mean to you? ❤

 

 

 

 

 

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Dump those motivational fitness photos…..

“This is my remedy for depression.” “This is my happy space.” “This is the place where I feel most comfortable!” Do these statements sound familiar?  Often, these words are paired with a picture of dumbbells, or a treadmill. Perhaps we do this subconsciously, but it emphasizes that the ONLY happy place for us is at the gym. I am guilty of this as well. I have been there, seen it, and done it! I used to think that the gym was the happiest place on the planet. How mistaken I was!

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I recall miserable moments at work. The only thing I could think about was going to the gym. All I wanted to do was a heavy workout. It was my safe place, where I could hide away for three hours a day. It was my only escape from the misery, discomfort and challenges at work.

As soon as I thought about my morning and evening cardio session (before the bodybuilding show), I could physically sense the goosebumps on my skin. I was obsessed with becoming leaner and leaner. It got to the point where I couldn’t even hold my own body, due to an overwhelming lack of food (eating 800-calories a day is not exactly “healthy”). Regardless of what I was putting my body through, I was ecstatic! I could see my veins and muscles, and I was down to 6% body fat. This was my “dream”, or so I thought…

To this day, I still get anxious whenever I think about not being able to race due to an injury. I feel like I’ve lost my best friend. Despite this, I push, perform, and force my body to run. I lift and do 222 burpees. Without this, I feel like my worth and value is gone.

Why is fitness thought of as a remedy for unhappiness? Why does it often become a substitute for friendship, or the only means of value one has? Why is this ideology so strongly embedded in our society?

Yes, exercising is good for health. It helps us to feel better physically and emotionally. Getting our endorphins released and having our metabolisms sped up is helpful for many things! As a biologist, nutritionist, and fitness professional, I see these benefits clearly. I encourage every single client and friend of mine to be active.

With that said, I strongly dislike the fact that the gym can be used as a substitute for personal awareness, mindfulness, and self-understanding.

How do you feel when you don’t go to the gym? How about when you “fall short” and don’t push yourself beyond your physical limits? Do you feel unworthy? Do you feel like you’re losing yourself and your identity?

If you answer “yes”, now is a critical moment for you to realize that self-worth, self-value, self-identity, self-power and self-strength needs to be found within one’s self.

It is not given to us for free.

It is not miraculously appearing in front of your eyes.

It does not land on your lap out of nowhere.

It is not a magic pill, nor a magic moment.

It is not a sparkly angel coming down from the sky.

It is none of these!

 

It is countless hours of self-work.

It is finally coming to the realization of where you are.

It is a frustrating trudge through trial after trial.

It is a limitless list of affirmations repeated over and over.

It is a mind blowing, eye-opening, and shocking moment of self-truth.

It is an emotional spiral between YOU-the-Best and YOU-the-Worst.

It is a powerless feeling when you become vulnerable.

It is a transformation that doesn’t happen overnight….in fact, you might not even know it’s happening!

It is a love that you need to surround your most sensitive inner-child with.

It is the compassion you need to find and create.

It is the painful memories you need to face to move forward and grow.

It takes the present moment to realize who you really are.

 

It is that time you need to spend with yourself, and only YOURSELF, to find happiness and self-belief. It is during this time that we can find self-validation, confidence, self-worth, value, acceptance, compassion, respect, and love. These enormous treasures of energy and power are within you.

YOU are NOT your worst enemy. YOU ARE YOUR BIGGEST FRIEND, SUPPORTER and ALLY!!!

You got this beYOUtiful! ❤