Dear my beloved Inner Child,
I wanted to start with the words of apologies and then words of appreciation!
I want to apologize for abandoning you for all my life.
I want to apologize for not hearing your voice, your scream and begging to be saved, protected and loved.
I want to apologize, from the depth of my heart, for not seeing your innocent beauty.
I want to apologize for being blind and deaf to your presence.
I want to apologize and beg for your forgiveness today.
Because today I realized how scared you’ve been. I can see how lonely you’ve been all the life despite me being so close. I know I left you behind, like the most cold-hearted person, and refused to listen, hear and feel you. I admit that I lived as a one-minded person who tried all her life to dismiss the deepest emotions of yours. I am aware of how zombie-like life I was creating without incorporating you in it. I apologize Izabelka.
I am so grateful that you are still with me.
I am so grateful that I came back home and recognized your presence.
I am so appreciative for reuniting with the biggest love of mine, you.
I am so happy I could see how scared you were and provide you with safety, we both so needed.
I am thankful to see how much you’ve been craving love and start giving it to both of us.
I am so happy you are with me!
You are the bravest and the strongest woman I have ever met!
How wonderful is that to share the life, love, magic and the beauty with you!
I love you to the moon and back! ❤
I promise to never ever leave you alone.
I promise to never ever leave you unprotected and insecure.
I promise to never ever leave you unloved.
‘I just want to tell you that you are safe.’ as soon as I said that, she hugged me again on my hips and I could hear her little and quick breath of relief. Her body relaxed and she kept holding onto me. It appeared to me as she wanted to stay with me. So, I decided to be there just for her. ‘You are safe’. She repeated ‘I am safe, I am safe, I am safe.’
[excerpt from my book “True Identity” – Summer 2018]