I want to start with telling you how sorry I am for who I was to you throughout last 36 years of our life.
I am sorry for seeing you as a shame, not wanting to even look at you in the mirror.
I am sorry for seeing you as fat after giving you only a little salad or stuffing you with only coffee the whole day.
I am sorry for expecting you to not be swollen, itchy or yellow-skinned after feeding you with sugar loaded crap and processed food.
I am sorry for always wanting to exchange you for something better than you were.
I am sorry for putting you through the pain of constant starvation, dieting, and purging.
I am sorry for not recognizing how amazingly you worked for me every single day without any injuries and major health issues.
I am sorry for not being content with you even after the super heavy workout routine, which didn’t leave you happy at all.
I am sorry for being disgusted by you.
I am sorry for hurting you physically.
I am sorry for using you in ways I feel ashamed of now.
I am sorry for feeling only negative emotions towards you.
I am sorry for always seeing other bodies better than you.
I am sorry for crying as soon as I saw you naked, not happy about what I saw.
I am sorry that I made myself so unhappy in you.
I am sorry for hurting you so deeply despite the love you gave me since I was born.
I am sorry…
and these apologies are the hardest I have ever expressed.
However, the appreciation I have today for you is unlimited.
The promise I have for you today is going to change everything.
I always wanted to be loved! You loved me unconditionally all the time.
I never did.
The promise is that….
I love you and will always do!!!!