Nut Butter Breakthrough

Do you live in the reality where you were told that some things in this world are just bad? Do you interact with people who constantly bombard you with judgment and opinions? Do you create your own world around those notions, thoughts, stories and beliefs that you gathered during your life, and that are not necessarily true?

Where am I headed to with those questions? What does that have to do with nut butter?

 

Oh, let me tell you my story.

I have never shared this before.

The entire world believes that being a bodybuilder, looking wonderfully lean and muscular, fit and athletic, is the healthiest thing someone could get involved in. There is no bigger misinterpretation than that. The myth of “healthy” bodybuilding can be easily debunked. I did look awesome, the best ever in my life, that’s true. Have I worked hard? Oh, heck yes, the hardest “job” I have ever done was getting ready for that stage. The limitations, deprivations, rules and what’s good and what’s totally not good or allowed, losing the social life, having no time for anything but gym, are the major “bonuses” to it. Moreover, I consider these even better: insomnia during the night, sleepiness during the day, lack of period, total lack of energy, adrenal fatigue, hypothyroidism and extreme food intolerance.

What I found the most incredible during that time is the way to look at the food and the body. Being at 7% body fat on the stage is an indication of your well-done work, and then gaining 2 pounds is considered not good anymore.

But where did I lose the main character of this story, nut butter? The cheat meal or carbing up by eating pizza, donuts and the crappiest food on this planet, was considered “good” and “beneficial” for your gains. However, eating healthy, full of good nutrients and good fats, nut butter, was the worst thing you could even think of, totally sabotaging your progress. Having this type of “cheat meal” was making me fat, over night actually, and thanks to it I most likely wouldn’t be able to step on the stage.

Do you follow me? Do you see the story behind it? Do you see the misleading beliefs here?

 

Where am I headed with that now?

Here it is. The bodybuilding world doesn’t talk about, but 85% girls start with it because they either have already underlying eating disorders and body image issues, or they end up with that after pursuing that journey. And I was on both sides. Yes, I am a girl who suffered bulimia and anorexia as a teenager, in mid and late 20s, and of course the “exciting” disorder became more dangerous after competitions. Every single pound is an obsession, every single bite of food is making me fat overnight. Every single spoon of that freaking nut butter is sabotaging all my athletic performance. But wait, what if I eat pizza, or donuts – then I should be fine, right?!

 

Do you see where I am getting to?

The messed-up stories and beliefs someone told me during that time, create the person I am now. And if you are me, you hate your body, you binge, then purge and hate yourself even more. And the vicious cycle is never going to end unless you stop yourself, you literally get yourself into the silent place, remove the worldly distractions and ask yourself the major question: what problem, emotions, pain, feelings, or issue am I trying to numb with food or any other addiction?

The root of that addiction was somewhere deep inside of me. Exactly like the root of my love-hate feelings toward a simple food like nut butter. Why was I loving it and hating it just after I ate it? Why was I craving it, even though I wasn’t hungry, so I could purge afterwards? Why was I even buying it, if it was making me so overly fat?? WHY?

Because the root of that was simple: someone told me that this type of food is making me fat. That nut butter will make me weak. That this food will make me perform bad. That thanks to this food I better stop pursuing whatever athletic and sport goals I had. Because I am going to fail…if I keep eating it. I am not exaggerating this story. It is my real, deep and true story.

 

So, if you still reading, listen: dig deep inside of your soul and heart, allow yourself to feel it, to think, to be in the moments with yourself, your memories – even if they are painful. Pain is the best teacher we could ever have in this world.

Use it wisely!

 

You got this beYOUtiful! ❤

 

 

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Step by Step… [The Emotional and Mental Memoir from Ultra Beast Spartan Race]

This is not a recap of an Ultra Beast Race. You can read those elsewhere. This is a mental and emotional piece about somebody’s inner world.

This is not a blog with ideas and tips on how to train. It is not about how to eat and prepare for one of the toughest obstacle endurance races. This is an expression of a soul screaming after facing an unknown field of defeat and disqualification.

The “Ultra Beast Spartan Race” is one of the longest obstacle races in the OCR series. What does that mean for an overachieving athlete like me? It means there is going to be a mental challenge. It inevitably leads to the question of “to be or not be” in the game.

 

Weeks before….

In the weeks leading up to that moment, I often found myself overthinking and over-analyzing the upcoming race. Of course, this would be interspersed with moments of calmness, and times of not thinking about the race at all. As a professional athlete, business owner, and life coach, I have learned firsthand how overthinking will never result in anything good. It only leads to fear, stress and demotivation. Overanalyzing is even worse; it creates an overpowering fear of losing control. I am the last one to predict the weather, the course, the obstacles, and most importantly: to predict my own body’s reaction and feelings.

I find it very relaxing to not think about the race at all. Yes, “spacing out” can irritate the ones who love you most. But guess what? I love spacing out. I bask in the moments when I allow the universe to think on my behalf. I love not knowing what the future may hold. I love to be at peace, doing what I do every day: eat healthy, train hard, stretch, rest, and sleep.

 

The night before….

That day before the Ultra Beast was one of the most serene days of my life. All my work was done. I was up to date on updating my clients’ plans. Everything was taken care of. The trip was planned, I had checked the weather. Even the last-minute gels had been purchased and packed. I was ready.

I decided to go on a walk. I was fully present. I looked up at the sky to see the stars, ever grateful for that precious moment! Silence is the best medicine for me before such a race.

Every professional athlete takes time to just sit with their own thoughts.

I shut down all the voices and all the stress.  This is the best anyone can do the night before a big race!

 

On race day….

Morning brought silence. With a carbed-up breakfast and mental focus, I knew what I wanted most in that moment. I thought: There is nothing else but me.

Me, the way I am now. Completely present, two hours before the start. Me, the most athletic, the best prepared, the healthiest person. I can face the unknown. All will be good, because I will take it step by step.

I did everything within my power, right? I am the strongest I could possibly be, right? I prepared every single detail for this race, right? Yes, I did.

Let’s do this!

 

The Race….

Start, slow start…

I relinquished my inner-will to chase the rest of the competitors. I kept repeating: “Pace yourself”. It soon became my mantra for the race.

“When the breathing peaks up, all I do is pace myself.”

Suddenly, I recalled everything I ever read or heard about the importance of breathing. How successful of a tool it is for stress management. Was I stressed? Not particularly, but I was very focused. I wasn’t going to let any breathing struggles get in my way. “You got this” and “keep going” was mentioned frequently by those passing me.

Yes, my legs keep moving step by step. “There is no other way but forward” my mind exclaims. “You got this, beYOUtiful!” I said to myself, as I approached a steep hill.

Step by step. I removed any thoughts about the obstacles that were ahead of me.

“That is the next step, let me focus on the uphill right now.”

I relinquished all care about the future. I knew that all I had to focus on was my next step. I had brief bursts of energy, helping me refocus, recharge.

Suddenly, I was battling an obstacle. My mind went blank. I swiftly reminded myself that I was moving forward. In my mind, “burpee” became synonymous with “obstacle”. I thought: “I will not allow ‘burpees’ to disturb my stubborn Taurus personality.”

Do you remember saying from the movie, “Dori”?

“Just keep swimming.”

Exactly. Keep moving. Keep swimming. Keep running!

 

Suddenly, my body was telling me something….

Was it a pinch in the knee? I tried to decipher the feeling. “Listen knee, we have a second lap to do. We’ve got this. Just cooperate with me and stop fighting, ok?”

As the miles added up, I felt my body in places I wasn’t expecting. I tried to reassure myself. I had never had issues with my ankles and knees before.

“Let me change the way I run. Let’s try to slow down and let refocus on the course. I know my body, all will be fine.”

As I made it through another obstacle, I thought, “That was easy, which means I’m a badass! Even the cold doesn’t bother me as much as others that I am slowly passing. Wow, I prepared really well.”

I had just finished facing the biggest fear of my life. Swimming didn’t kill me physically, but it broke me mentally.

As I plunged in to the icy water, I tried to my best to have a positive mindset. But, unfortunately, the panic attack was stronger.

“That’s ok, it’s in the past. Let’s do burpees and move on. I’ve got a second lap to do and I need to have a serious conversation with my body parts.”

 

Downhill…

I know the difference between pain and discomfort. I have an incredibly high pain tolerance. But this pain was excruciating.

“Knee, please, please don’t do this to me now. Why are you actually hurting? I’ve been so kind to you. I’ve been pacing myself this entire time.”

My pace began to slow.

Still, I moved on, step by step. But I felt it. No, it wasn’t pain. It was fear, creeping in to my thoughts. I had worked so hard on letting my fear go, just days before the race.

“Go away!!!!”

As I pictured my ligaments tearing and visualized tripping and rolling down this hill, my inner self shouted “NO, NO, NO!!!”

But I’m stubborn. The overachiever, the badass, the winner.

 

I had to decide….

The pain became unbearable. Do you know those pain scales in the hospital, with “1” being the best and “10” being the worst? I was at a 9, maybe 10, and it brought tears to my eyes. It was so intense that I could barely hold my focus as I limped. A fight between my inner-worlds ensued.

“Didn’t you accomplish 12 hours of the brutal Hurricane Heat event? Do you remember what you were telling yourself there? Yes, so keep repeating: step, step, step, step. Don’t think about giving up. Just: step, step, step, step. Shut up and move on. Step, step, step. This is your dream. Step, step, step. This is your life. Step, step, step.”

I couldn’t take another.

“Please don’t do that to me! Don’t fade, please. I can go, I can move….”

Having to give away your inner power hurts more than any knee ever could. I had to decide to let my partner continue through the race without me. I felt like I let myself down, and I had never envisioned this would happen!

 

Afterwards….   

I felt empty, I felt lost, I felt disempowered. I had lost myself somewhere on the 15-mile mark.

Someone else must have decided to DNF on my behalf. It was not the Izabela I know. She never gives up. She never whines. She never uses pain as an excuse! The Izabela I know lives by the saying: “be comfortable with uncomfortable”. It was someone other than me that decided to quit. I know I could’ve gone on and finished it!

But no, continuing with that pain wouldn’t have been possible.

The Izabela I know is also caring of herself and others. She is supportive. She inspires and motivates herself and other. She might be unstoppable, but she also knows when it’s time to practice self-care. She may have the strength to break ice, but she also knows how to melt ice with self-love. She knows that dreams do come true. They just come true during the right time, at the right place.

 

Everything happens for a reason.

 

You got this beYOUtiful! ❤

….. step by step ……

12 Weeks Important to Create a Habit of Lifestyle Changes, Healthy Choices and Balanced Emotions

Challenge Up 12-week program: http://beyoutiful.fit/challengeup/. Make sure to sign up before January 4th, 2018. The kick off of the program is on that day!

Wait, 12 weeks is too long? Why not 21 days as everyone believed it should take?

Some people say that it takes 21 days to form a new habit. But according to a research done by Phillipa Lally, a psychology researcher, reveals that it actually takes about 66 days to form a new habit.

The researchers examined the habits of 96 people for a 12-week period. Every person was asked to select one habit to adopt for that period.

They reported each day if they were able to do what they choose and how they felt about it. The habits were things like drinking 2 liters of water every day to running 15 minutes before dinner. After the 12-weeks period elapsed the conclusion was that it takes a minimum of two months to build a new habit.

Why 12 weeks?

12 weeks is adequate to create good habits such as exercising or cutting out junk foods from the diet. Our fitness program gears towards a comprehensive plan that involves customized nutrition plans, personalized coaching and support from a private community.

Our 12-week program will be systematic and help you to make healthy changes one step at a time. Going through this program will boost your self-esteem and make you feel good about yourself and your body once more. You not only get a fit and sexy body but also your emotions are transformed to the better.

Not so perfect but…

The best part is you will still be able to build the habit that you want. It doesn’t matter if you mess up one or two times, you can still pick yourself up and start again. There is no reason to judge yourself that you couldn’t manage to transform yourself in 21 days.

Remember that you don’t have to be perfect. Being human means making mistakes and learning from them. Give yourself a chance to make mistakes and treat failure as a learning experience and develop strategies to get back on track immediately.

 

Embracing your long journey to good health

Remember that you don’t need to rush the process. You need enough time to train and be fit and 12 weeks is perfect. Remember that achieving the body of your dreams is not an event, it is a lifelong process. It took time for you to add weight, and it may take more time to shed the extra weight.

You have developed the unhealthy behaviors over a long period. Therefore, it may take time to replace unhealthy habits with healthy ones. Many people find it difficult when they try to change too much unhealthy behaviors too fast. To ensure that you succeed in your quest, focus on one goal or change at a time. After you have a well-established healthy routine, you can try work on another goal that works toward the overall change you’re striving for.

Nevertheless, you have to embrace the process and commit to it. Understanding this will make it easier for you to manage your expectations. You will commit to small workout plans rather than a high-intensity workout that will cause burnouts and cause you to give up because you expect huge changes that will not take place if you don’t do it right. And the right way is to be patient. Don’t pressure yourself to rush this.

At the end of the day, you have goals that you want to achieve. And it doesn’t matter how long you take, but that you will actually get the results that you want. Habits take a longer time to form and all you need is 12 weeks of personalized coaching and nutrition guidance alongside a support community for support and accountability.

What more will you need? Really.

Sign up for the program and change your life for the better.

 

You got this beYOUtiful! ❤

Cashew Butter Banana Cookies

I loved that recipe and even more cookies which came out so delicious. I even remade that recipe and used pears instead of banana with peanut butter and it came amazing as well 😊

Do you want to explore more dishes which are fascinating, tasty and healthy at the same time? Check out my blog here.

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Ingredients:

MIX A:

  • 2 ripe bananas (or 2 large/3 medium ripe pears)
  • ½ cup erythritol or Swerve https://swervesweet.com/
  • 2 tbsp cashew butter (or peanut/almond butter)
  • 2 tbsp coconut oil

MIX B:

  • ½ cup egg whites
  • ½ cup coconut/almond milk

MIX C:

  • 1 ½ cups of cashew or almond meal/flour
  • 1 cup coconut flour
  • 1 tbsp baking powder
  • ½ cup raw cashews or almonds
  • 1 tbsp chia seeds
  • 1 tbsp hemp seeds
  • 1 tbsp vanilla powder
  • 1 tsp xanthan gum

Instructions:

  1. Preheat the oven to 400F.
  2. Add all the ingredients from mix A in abowl. Mash well.
  3. Add mix B and gently stir.
  4. Add mix C. Combine and place 30 heaping tablespoons of the cookie dough on a baking sheet.
  5. Bake for 20 minutes or until desire crispiness.

ENJOY IT!

 

Nutritional Facts:

Servings 30

Per one serving: 121 calories; 7g fats; saturated fats 2g; monounsaturated fats 1g; polyunsaturated fats 0g; carbohydrates 13g; fiber 3g; sugars 2g; proteins 4g; cholesterol 0mg; sodium 102mg; potassium 35mg.

 

STAY HEALTHY!!!!

YOU ARE IN IT TO WIN IT!!!!

You got this beYOUtiful! ❤

The 5 lessons I learned from the movie “The World’s Fastest Indian”

That movie was so beautiful. Not because of the landscape, or some new computer tricks. It was beautiful because of the story and life changing wisdom shown in it.

The movie is based on facts about setting up the world’s fastest record on the motorcycle. More information about that you can find here: http://www.scta-bni.org/.

Just to give you a little background, though, it is a story about the lovely character from New Zealand, Burt Munro. He dreams for 25 years to travel to Utah’s Bonneville Salt Flats Speed Week event to set up the fastest land speed record on his 47-year old motorcycle. He builds every piece of his bike by himself and is so proud of it. He takes his treasure and travels across the globe to fulfill his dreams. And the rest you just need to watch 😊

This blog is not about the facts or info about the movie itself, or whatsoever. It is about how it made me feel and what beautiful lessons it delivered to my life.

 

Lesson #1

Be optimistic

The main character, Burt (played by Anthony Hopkins), exhibit an innate positive attitude towards anything it shows up in his life. Every single obstacle is a challenge to solve the problem. Every event is an opportunity to create new experience.

** Attitude is everything, Choose wisely.

 

Lesson #2

Be kind

Burt is meeting many people during his dream journey and travels. He greets everyone and he introduces himself to everybody in a kind way. He always has a great, humor-filled, attitude towards every person he meets. He sees everyone as a friend. He helps around and he gets helped. It is amazing to see how he, by being polite, attracts kindness around him.

** Kindness is our natural ability to interact with others.

 

Lesson #3

Dream big

His life’s dream came true. It did because he dreamt big, despite others making fun of him. He dreamt big despite obstacles he was facing, and failures he experienced. His dream was big, and for many in his little town not achievable. His dream was about to come true despite medical conditions he had to face. How rewarding it can be when your dream comes true.

** Dream big even if it makes you afraid or scared.

 

Lesson #4

Be patient

It took Burt 25 years to build up and master his motorcycle, save enough money and eventually book the dream trip to Utah.  When you dream big, give yourself the space to do so. When you are working on accomplishing your goals, give it the time needed. When you want something, put some effort, focus and see it coming to you.

** Nothing that is worth achieving happens overnight.

 

Lesson #5

Never give up

Burt failed many times. Either his bike didn’t work the way it should, or parts were not made the way he needed them to be, or simply there wasn’t enough money saved yet to book the trip. He not only took months to travel on the ship across the globe, but faced many obstacles on the way to Utah. And not even registered for the event?? Never give up, because at this moment it may feel like there is no way out, and the next moment there will be a solution waiting out there just for you.

** You never know how close you are, never give up!